I WILL EAT BUTTS
I got back #home after #work one day and as I was taking off my shoes, I gave myself a facepalm! I forgot to buy something for lunch! I was furious!
The first thing I did was to walk to the window and take my pack of #Marlboro to have a #smoke to #calm down. As I opened the pack, I realized I had five or six cigarettes inside. Not only was I mad I didn’t have anything to eat, except some pasta that needed to be cooked, but also I was furious that I WOULD BE out of #cigarettes, too.
So after I smoked one, got my shot of nicotine, and came to my senses, I realized I was being childish, and it was not the end of the world. I could spread the five cigarettes till morning.
I said to myself that I would go out again after I change into something more comfortable, and I’d buy something to eat.
Then I reached out to my wallet and opened it. All of a sudden, I realized that I had enough money for food and cigarettes for TWO days, and I was not getting paid in FIVE!
And that was when my anxiety struck! So I started calculating, and it got me into a vicious circle.
How was I going to spread #cigarettes during those five days? How would other people at work react when we order food for a lunch break? Would all that work? Would I actually be borrowing money for cigarettes?
And then, all of a sudden, I realized: I was not worried about food and having nothing to eat, I was worried about not being able to have my cigarette every 24 minutes!
I was a slave to this! And my situation was not even that bad! I did have money for five days! It was that I didn’t have money for cigarettes for five days!
So I was literally #fighting in my head: would I eat #bread or cigarette butts, and I almost said to myself I would eat butts!
As soon as I realized this, #anxiety stopped. Then I had something to work on. I realized I didn’t have the #authority over my life and that I was a slave to nicotine.
I had survived a war as a child, had been diagnosed with clinical #depression, overcame all of that, only to be afraid now because of some craving for cigarettes?
Like any other human being, I had the resources to overcome any difficulty in life. And I did! I packed all of that in Life of non-smokers bundles and started practicing it, and after a few hours, I started living Li.O.N.S. Life (Life of non-smokers)!!
These tools can be yours too! And I will be happy to provide them for you!
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